I have always thought I am in search of a spiritual life...I am in search of god...I am in search of peace...I am in search of some one whom I want to believe and make a guru..I am in search of that almighty...
I believe in soul/spirit/atma whatever you can call it as...because I myself have felt many a time...
In my childhood,barely I was 4 or 5 I guess I used to roam around my parents family house in Kerala...a house surrounded by lush green trees and no pollution and full of natural beauty..I remember I walk around the house and enjoy the nature..the chirp of the birds...etc...I listen to nature...on one day like that I was in complete sync with the nature..I guess it was post afternoon..every one was quite asleep..I slipped out of my moms room and started my exploration around the house...and I was listening to nature..I was day dreaming I guess..I felt I was out of my body...and I am standing in the air and looking up to my body which is standing in the earth..I could see the house ...I could float...suddenly I realized I am not in my body and I came back to the body....I can not explain what I felt..It was peace it was I was wondering who I really am... I still remember this incident after so many years also..and many a times I have had this feeling also..but which I have tried Imagining and felt..
My quest for spirituality would have started from that day onwards,many a times I have asked who I am? And who is god..what is spirit is..Now I know there is god..But I don't know him..and I know there is spirit which I have really felt many a times...
I have written this much because of a discussion that had happened with a close friend of mine yesterday.
She is a christian and a core believer,In 2009 one unfortunate August 30th afternoon she met with a terrible accident..I was not in Bangalore..I was traveling that day to my native Kerala...she was my room mate that time and she went out with her fiance and family on that day afternoon to someplace...and I was full prepared to go home..I called her in the evening before I got in to bus ,but her no was unreachable..I dint think much and left home...after 2 3 days I got a mail from her another friend that she had met with an accident and is in ICU..(and the whole family is in hospital and uncle expired..) I rushed back to Bangalore the same day and she was in hos mat hospital in ICU when I came was in very terrible condition which I can not explain...she was in unrecognizable condition had head injury and whole of face got swollen and black..and broke pelvic bone and leg..
She was in coma for 3 days and I was literally praying for her that day nothing should happen to her...every body was saying nothing can be said as the head injury is there...which is very serious..her sister and husband was there..her friends were there..I was not knowing what to do..
After a week she came back to life...but was recognizing only few people and started coming back to life..
she was in hos mat for almost three weeks and later she got discharged and was taken back to her home town...and she was bedridden for nine long months in her home and then she came back to Bangalore after that...
Its only yesterday she have shared what she have gone through in that coma stage after the accident..I feel she have gone through a Near Death Experience.
I remember she asking me once she was out of coma whether uncle could make it...till then no body told her that he expired..but she knew that he expired..So I have to tell the truth(which I have always wondered how did she know)and when I said he expired..she cried like a child....as some one very close have gone...and she prayed for him..(she was not close to her).
She said when she was in coma..she met the almighty..she thought she died and some body was walking her in a path full covered with gold...very pure gold....and angels on the sides...in full white dress...very white dress...that kind of white we can not even see in earth...and she asked the lord is she died and she saw uncle in very pathetic condition...keeping his arm on his chest and said "ende ammachi.." and died...the light asked her to go back...she could feel his presence but could not make out whether it was Jesus or the father him self...she says she believe it was the father...
Later she asked jijo who was with uncle when he expired, was it the same way she seen the uncle have expired and he said he expired in the same way...
I also believe her spirit was out of her body and was starting to travel to a different world at that time.....but she had so much to do ...so she have to come back to this cruel world...
I believe in soul/spirit/atma whatever you can call it as...because I myself have felt many a time...
In my childhood,barely I was 4 or 5 I guess I used to roam around my parents family house in Kerala...a house surrounded by lush green trees and no pollution and full of natural beauty..I remember I walk around the house and enjoy the nature..the chirp of the birds...etc...I listen to nature...on one day like that I was in complete sync with the nature..I guess it was post afternoon..every one was quite asleep..I slipped out of my moms room and started my exploration around the house...and I was listening to nature..I was day dreaming I guess..I felt I was out of my body...and I am standing in the air and looking up to my body which is standing in the earth..I could see the house ...I could float...suddenly I realized I am not in my body and I came back to the body....I can not explain what I felt..It was peace it was I was wondering who I really am... I still remember this incident after so many years also..and many a times I have had this feeling also..but which I have tried Imagining and felt..
My quest for spirituality would have started from that day onwards,many a times I have asked who I am? And who is god..what is spirit is..Now I know there is god..But I don't know him..and I know there is spirit which I have really felt many a times...
I have written this much because of a discussion that had happened with a close friend of mine yesterday.
She is a christian and a core believer,In 2009 one unfortunate August 30th afternoon she met with a terrible accident..I was not in Bangalore..I was traveling that day to my native Kerala...she was my room mate that time and she went out with her fiance and family on that day afternoon to someplace...and I was full prepared to go home..I called her in the evening before I got in to bus ,but her no was unreachable..I dint think much and left home...after 2 3 days I got a mail from her another friend that she had met with an accident and is in ICU..(and the whole family is in hospital and uncle expired..) I rushed back to Bangalore the same day and she was in hos mat hospital in ICU when I came was in very terrible condition which I can not explain...she was in unrecognizable condition had head injury and whole of face got swollen and black..and broke pelvic bone and leg..
She was in coma for 3 days and I was literally praying for her that day nothing should happen to her...every body was saying nothing can be said as the head injury is there...which is very serious..her sister and husband was there..her friends were there..I was not knowing what to do..
After a week she came back to life...but was recognizing only few people and started coming back to life..
she was in hos mat for almost three weeks and later she got discharged and was taken back to her home town...and she was bedridden for nine long months in her home and then she came back to Bangalore after that...
Its only yesterday she have shared what she have gone through in that coma stage after the accident..I feel she have gone through a Near Death Experience.
I remember she asking me once she was out of coma whether uncle could make it...till then no body told her that he expired..but she knew that he expired..So I have to tell the truth(which I have always wondered how did she know)and when I said he expired..she cried like a child....as some one very close have gone...and she prayed for him..(she was not close to her).
She said when she was in coma..she met the almighty..she thought she died and some body was walking her in a path full covered with gold...very pure gold....and angels on the sides...in full white dress...very white dress...that kind of white we can not even see in earth...and she asked the lord is she died and she saw uncle in very pathetic condition...keeping his arm on his chest and said "ende ammachi.." and died...the light asked her to go back...she could feel his presence but could not make out whether it was Jesus or the father him self...she says she believe it was the father...
Later she asked jijo who was with uncle when he expired, was it the same way she seen the uncle have expired and he said he expired in the same way...
I also believe her spirit was out of her body and was starting to travel to a different world at that time.....but she had so much to do ...so she have to come back to this cruel world...
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