Things I have learned in very hard way.

Last week was a terrible one,does any body can be happy and sad at the same time,I was.

A lot of things happened last week,re connecting of a lost love,breaking heart and trust of a lover,losing respect with a close friend...

I don't know what state I should be in..Happy or feeling terrible...I am feeling terrible more than happy that is for sure.

The things I have learned in a very hard way last week.

 A lost love is not going to come back and make your life colorful,Its a happy feeling to get to talk about past and cherish..But again its momentary...once the connection is closed..you are again in the gutter of emotions...feeling terrible and hopelessly sad..

And if a person have let you down in the past..he will let you down again in the future..to save his ass on bad circumstances..you have never been a priority in the past and will never be a priority in the future...

Never break the heart of some one who love you unconditionally,knowing your faults and problem...
I have always felt terrible seeing some one who was very close to my heart getting hurt because of me...that is the only reason I have felt like to run away from him...not that I don't love him enough..

A friend is the best criticizer..she can scold you and yell at you the way no one can do..and yet if you are guilty you wont be mad at her...you will see the truth in front of your eyes.or else she will make sure she will show you the truth even if the path she chooses to show that is the worst.


At the end of the day I was feeling one needs peace more than anything...love is not important..But peace should be brought to heart...otherwise its difficult to survive..

Friends such a tresure they are.

Last week my best child hood friend have come here in Bangalore to meet me. she had an Interview here in fortis hospital and she was there with me for 3 full days.I have taken leave and spend really good time with her.

I met her in 1997 from Jnv kannur when I was studying in 6th std.I was lonely just joined a boarding school  and had no much friends. so I was looking for a girl to make friends with.I used to notice her she was a very lean silent girl who does not talk much to any one.I was a very active kid till then and a sudden change of the environment and the school made me a silent one. I have studied in Malayalam medium till then and sudden change of environment made me wonder what to do.

I don't remember how was our first meeting But I am sure she do remember :P.After started talking to her we both started getting along really well,she took real care of me and we where always together in everything and our friendship then continued till 12th std.

After I left JNV we both have to choose our own ways,I was difficult to be apart as she was there for me for everything,she was a great friend which one will meet in a life time.she have given me so much love and care which from nobody I have got the same kind of attention but life have to go on we moved part in search of what have kept for both of us.

I have met her once after JNV ,I went to her home and stayed for two days.other than that we kept our communication alive through letters calls and post cards etc.

It is after growing up I realized we both share same kind of passions like reading and traveling.we used to discuss about books ,she was so spiritual person I found my comfort in her spirituality thoughts etc.

So this visit was super exciting for me,I was not prepared she planned it all of a sudden but I was over joyed.

three days went like three hours,we chatted chatted like anything.we discussed lot of things about travel,book,god,death,her work experiences (which was so touchy,my heart melted hearing them),being spiritual,what not almost everything we could remember under the earth.

I was in full happy mood,so touched by her presence and was so happy .

I don't know when I will be able to meet her again,But I am sure we will stay so close to heart no matter how far we are.

And I will feel the same happiness whenever I meet her.

2012 end with a happy and cheerful note,her presence made this year so wonderful for me.

A look back to 2012

Its already 2013 here...Good bye to 2012.

Over all the year 2012 was good.I attained a kind of stability in life this year ,In personal life especially.

Here are some important things which I remember about 2012.

 1) I moved to a new house all by myself and brought some furniture's and started living by myself cooking and dedicating more time to reading.

2) I moved to new job(Tech m).

3) I got a room mate in march and she have been very adjusting and I enjoyed her company,I met couple of people through her and made friends with every body.

4) Have been to Masinagudi in September, and Yercaud in November (Leisure road trips both with out my 'N').

5) Learned to drive Activa,and started driving really good,also learned to drive car.

6) Started cooking very seriously,and started taking meals to office for lunch.

7) Got a new camera(Nikon cool pix).

8) Took cycling as a serious passion and started doing daily commute to office

9) Became an aunt of a baby girl :).


10) Read couple of books
     a) Time pass (Pooja bedi)
     b) chasing the monsoon (Alexander Fred)